Shattering Myths and Contradictions Galore

1. I’m a pretty good driver, can speed, control the car, all thanks to my fast reflexes -- defensive driving is child’s play for me!

…And yet, a friend whose car I was driving once commented that I was a rough driver! That took me totally by surprise.

2. Although by no means an exhibitionist, I’d like to think I’m open about my views, thoughts, opinions, and lastly, my feelings. Yes, more or less, in that order. Who doesn't enjoy attention every now and then? I’d like to be seen and heard, not necessarily the life of the party, but not a wallflower wilting in a corner either. Neutral, not extreme.

…And yet, people discovering me online, however public or private my persona is, doesn’t quite gel with me. Especially people who know me to some extent, or know of me. Complete strangers don’t matter.

3. I’m highly intuitive and sensitive to other’s feelings.

…And yet, I hurt my loved ones often and over and over again. And this despite knowing how they'd react to my temper tantrums or sharp tongue.

4. People who I work with mostly see me as a cheerful, funloving, often mischievous, jovial and humorous individual, passionate about the work I do.

…And yet, there is a dark unappealing side to me that is revealed only to those I am closest to. I can be a picture of self pity, sadness, negativity, lethargy, and confusion. No, not a pretty picture :(

5. I have a pretty good sense and grip of fashion and what looks good and what doesn’t.

…And yet, when it comes to myself, there appears to be a gaping hole in this area. A blind spot. I have a closet full of clothes that average about 15 yrs in existence; styles that have long gone out of fashion that I don’t wear, but continue to hoard because I don't have the heart to give them away and because they are still in great condition; I dress ordinarily and without flair, with very occasional flashes of creativity and imagination quite contrary to my personality.

6. Am wild and young at heart, and care a hoot for what society thinks of me.

…And yet, I am cautious, ever seeking approval from near and dear ones, wise beyond my years, making me feel old and out of sync with present times. I tend to worry constantly once I encounter criticism or not-so-positive opinions from others.