Wants and Want Nots

I want to be strong - mentally and physically and strong willed, not weak.

I want to be independent, not dependent.

I want to be smart, not emotionally foolish. I want to be beautiful from the outside as well as the inside.

I dont want to feel suicidal anymore. It is tiring.

I dont want to be frustrated and resentful and blame anyone else for my failures or state of being.

When I can climb the physical mountains in this world, why is it so difficult to scale the obstacles of life?

If Only....!!

Blogger should've been around when I was in dire need of direction in my life vis-a-vis what line/field to study further in. If only this input was available back then....sigh....

My life has turned into a series of 'Buts, If Onlys, I wish...' and such like.

For whatever it's worth:

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal. You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

Still Waters Run Deep

If I were a Red Indian, that would probably be the name given to me by my tribe.
I look calm on the surface but there's raging waters beneath.

Sometimes not even a trickle.

Up and down the graph goes. Sigh…

Good for Nothing

The one thing I'm good at, and it turns out to be writing secretly.

My true self remains hidden, especially the good part, which is strange. Why doesn't it come across? Or do I do such a good job of keeping it hidden without my own knowledge? Have perfected the art of not revealing the emotions that matter.

Oh, and am also good at keeping secrets. Especially my own.

Hiding and running away from my own self constantly is tiring me out. Dunno why this happens.

How To Be Self Destructive

By ME.

Yes, I wrote the book on it.